Jan 25, 2011

Unparalleled World

Sirmione 2008
How much of you lives in one world? 

How often do you live in a world and dream and wait and plan and escape to your inner world? Is there a line you draw on purpose to separate them? And if yes, where is the real you?  

There is no such thing. Duplication leads to tension. Duplicity leads to sickness. Escape is a chimera and leads to fracture. 

There is only way. Integrity. There is no integrity in parallel worlds. 

There is only one, unparalleled world. 
And the will to see it.

Jan 14, 2011

End of the line

Covasna 2010
Today my mother received her retiring decision. She worked for 31 years, 1 month and 12 days. She has been the most serious and dedicated state employee I ever met. She will get a ridiculous amount as pension. She called my today to tell me the news.

It was like a cold shower. Not that we are not happy and we were not expecting it but I realized that I am 40 this year and by the time I will see my kids grown ups I will have to retire too. I wouldn't dare to imagine the pension that I would get after working in all kind of employment (or better non employment forms) in the last 15 years.

It made me realize that I tend to care and do things without thinking too much of the future. It made me realize I need to close some chapters in my life, live fully the present and plan for a more balanced  future.

It made me draw the end of some of my own lines.

Jan 13, 2011

To all my suffering friends

Bucharest, 2010
THE JOY OF BEING. (Eckhart Tolle, A new Earth)
"Unhappiness or negativity is a disease on our planet. What pollution is on the outer level is negativity on the inner. It is everywhere, not just in places where people don't have enough, but even more so where they have more than enough. Is that surprising? No. The affluent world is even more deeply identified with form, more lost in content, more trapped in ego.
People believe themselves to be dependent on what happens for their happiness, that is to say dependent on form. They don't realize that what happens is the most unstable thing in the universe. It changes constantly. They look upon the present moment as either marred by something that has happened and shouldn't have or as deficient because of something that has not happened but should have. And so they miss the deeper perfection that is inherent in life itself, a perfection that is always already there, that lies beyond what is happening or not happening, beyond form. Accept the present moment and find the perfection that is deeper than any form and untouched by time.
The joy of Being, which is the only true happiness, can not come to you through any form, possession, achievement, person, or event – through anything that happens. That joy cannot come to you – ever. It emanates form the formless dimension within you, from consciousness itself and thus is one with who you are"

Jan 10, 2011


Sfanta Ana, 2011
What happens when you have to talk 
about something you don't want to think? 
How can you describe in words the desire you feel 
to give up to thoughts?

Jan 2, 2011


Sagres, 2010

I had several revelations in 2010 mostly about myself, my past and the the way it had influenced my development as a person and personality. I was very happy about my progress and started this blog to integrate the experience. But it was only in the end of the year when, after some accidental reading, I realized that all this is nearly futile. Because it's all about the form. And the form is just a futile creation of our restless mind fueling our ego. The thing I want to do less is focus on the form. The thing I will do do more is creating the space. Inner space. So, I will talk you more about Space over Form. See you there!